Selasa, 23 Mei 2017

life is battle

I think everyone agrees with the title of the current post. I experience that and for sure I am enjoying the battle. My life is fluctuating, it never been flat even once. though life should go on and never give up whatever its reason. One time, I feel I can handle it, I believe myself and then I turn to an arrogant person because I thought everything went smoothly due to my effort... But then I realised so quick and remembering God is behind all things happen in my life... In happy and sad, in joy and hectic, in love and hate. Everything happens without my permission... Below picture can explain what happen to me... between faith and logic, sometimes I have to choose one among both. 

Sustenance in the picture explain everything will you get from your faith or logical. In conclusion, I will stay to hold my faith at the same time I use my thinking to consider things in their path... right path. 
Faith leads me to something beyond your mind that you are never been expected that can happen in your life. Such an amazing... where your sense would not accept the words amazing, but it is truly happen. When people act makes me desperate until suicide comes up to your crazy uncontrolled mind, Wellness and Goodness come along you and greet you ...there will be always one occasion when you never stop to thank. for His (Allah) kind to me.  

Selasa, 11 April 2017

Ikhlas

Anyone can help me to explain me about this word "IKHLAS" ? . I use capital for that word since I am wondering what does it mean for me and other people...
This morning, when I try to remind my friend about her supposed job and hope she can do it in proper way because all duties like in one stack in Monday which it is my turn to handle the duties. is that fair? just trying to remind her but she thought I was complaining, and keep saying to me for "IKHLAS" ...
Ridiculous... How can IKHLAS like a toy word you can spill it out as your want before seeing the context.. holy cooowww...

Another story, when I had a wanna be told-loyal friend (I thought so) and she always try to give her hand when I was in trouble and kept it even I refused her kindness because I don't want to give a burden for some one or to be honest every one in my life, but then because one misunderstanding she told me something hurtful and even accused me for something I never thought before ... in front of my children she accused me with cruel and make me feel so bad.... then, she asked back what she gave to me... and told me she was "IKHLAS" ...
When, I try to ensure her.. she was wrong about me.. her thought.. but then she said.. "I won't ever ask an apologize to you" .. then, still you said it: "IKHLAS"  ????

Don't you think it was ridiculous things?


Oh Dear.. this world is  tiring thing for me. I hate to face a people who fake, cruel, and ridiculous...

Oh.. Okay.. I stop to think a rubbish like them.. ignore them. They mean nothing for me, oww... wait.. mean something.. I know bad people when you were being hurt, then I know what is the meaning of bad and good, angel and evil, fake and true, honest and lie.. Ikhlas and Pamrih....

Great... I got the essence from another lesson in life.

I hope I can be a true person who ikhlas, honest, and better and better in life for my family and people surround me.


SPIRIIITTTT Feni   ^__^